Today was such an awful and unhappy day because two things happened on me. :( Firstly I got "dumped" by my so called close friend because I have known her since the first year til the second year. Our friendship became more and more static and stale as our years go by. Out of all the China friends whom I have known (probably most of them just simply step into my life briefly and leave but they all leave me with at least a fairly, good and innocent memories), she was the only one that does not seem to consider my feeling... It just seems that she does not see me as a normal friend, but rather a companion. She only choose to accompany me when she feels like it or has a reason to do so. I was so sad. I smsed her today to meet up for our usual lunch on every monday. To my surprise, she said she couldn't meet me up. because she did not have lesson early morning. For this I can relate that, so I wouldn't mind her not meeting me up. But she added that she was with her classmates now... which means that she IS alr in school, right? So I replied her by showing her the sad emoticon. And asked her again with now confirmation one, if she isnt eating with me. She answered with a "yes". I was so disappointed! She actually did not thought about me eating alone, and she would rather with her classmates clique, than with me. (it's true that im a boring kind, but how can she just abandon me like that? Have u ever consider ur normal friend's feeling?) Next I asked another of my ex-classmate whom was also meeting us every monday. Much to my dismay, she also couldn't made it as she has an appointment with her teacher... but im okay with it. So i was all alone during my lunch break.
Sometimes, I just don't understand certain people. why can't they just inform their friends about not being able to meet for lunch. It is true that my lesson ended but she could just told me to wait for her etc. All along I learnt to be nice to my China friend because we are friends. But... for sometimes, occasionally, she just ignore my problem and move on with what she wants. I knew she wasn't going to be my best, closest friend ever since I had met her during our orientation because I can see that in her eyes, she approached me because I was sitting besides her, and she did not have friends in our class. And she thought that I was from China, which lol'ed ... (some said if im japanese... lol'ed...). But we eventually became friends out of companionship.
Im pretty sure this is how most people in poly met their friends, hence the reason they said that it is hard to find loyal friends.
Sometimes I dun know if she has a motive for doing every single thing.
Not trying to be stereotype... but even though she has been wearing nice korean-style clothes, it made me feel much disgusted that she was a bochap (dun care) girl. Like the kind of person who just refuse to give up seat for the inconvenience ones and pretend to sleep/ checking phone. Outside looks nice, but inside looks ugly. :( hais
I guessed i was being naive for treating every people nicely uh? Sometimes u just don't receive any gratitude after u did some deeds. Well guessed this is common nowadays...
I hoped she had her own retribution one day :/ Friend w/o considering her feeling. Friend who refuse to give way.
I will still meet her for weekly lunch, but I won't be keeping in touch with her much anymore...
Fortunately I met my other ex-classmates and my closest study buddy when i was stoning there. But i was so upset that I did not have the mood to chat with them let alone an appetite. So all the time I put a mask behind my sad face, and try to laugh and smile with them. Hahas...Before I secretly told my study buddy that I had no one to eat with, she was nice enough to ask me if i had eaten.
And did u know? She was the only one where both of us had really went crazy and had fun. Even if she is my study buddy.
"Friend" is just a title. I can abandon friendship even if we had known each other for long. Because i would rather choose a quality friendship over quantity. I can give way if she is a nice person. But otherwise i wouldnt wish to meet her many times. I continued to keep my China friend friendship because we need each other for companion, at least until the day we finished studying poly.
Last note, I hope people could understand that certain friends who couldn't clicked with u, do not wished to be like that. Just like most people, they want someone to crazy with them and be trustworthy. Even for an introvert/shy person. So do considerate to their feelings when u are about to abandon them. If u do, u should let them know why. It's their choice whether they want to change. Don't be a selfish being.
Sometimes, I just don't understand certain people. why can't they just inform their friends about not being able to meet for lunch. It is true that my lesson ended but she could just told me to wait for her etc. All along I learnt to be nice to my China friend because we are friends. But... for sometimes, occasionally, she just ignore my problem and move on with what she wants. I knew she wasn't going to be my best, closest friend ever since I had met her during our orientation because I can see that in her eyes, she approached me because I was sitting besides her, and she did not have friends in our class. And she thought that I was from China, which lol'ed ... (some said if im japanese... lol'ed...). But we eventually became friends out of companionship.
Im pretty sure this is how most people in poly met their friends, hence the reason they said that it is hard to find loyal friends.
Sometimes I dun know if she has a motive for doing every single thing.
Not trying to be stereotype... but even though she has been wearing nice korean-style clothes, it made me feel much disgusted that she was a bochap (dun care) girl. Like the kind of person who just refuse to give up seat for the inconvenience ones and pretend to sleep/ checking phone. Outside looks nice, but inside looks ugly. :( hais
I guessed i was being naive for treating every people nicely uh? Sometimes u just don't receive any gratitude after u did some deeds. Well guessed this is common nowadays...
I hoped she had her own retribution one day :/ Friend w/o considering her feeling. Friend who refuse to give way.
I will still meet her for weekly lunch, but I won't be keeping in touch with her much anymore...
Fortunately I met my other ex-classmates and my closest study buddy when i was stoning there. But i was so upset that I did not have the mood to chat with them let alone an appetite. So all the time I put a mask behind my sad face, and try to laugh and smile with them. Hahas...Before I secretly told my study buddy that I had no one to eat with, she was nice enough to ask me if i had eaten.
And did u know? She was the only one where both of us had really went crazy and had fun. Even if she is my study buddy.
"Friend" is just a title. I can abandon friendship even if we had known each other for long. Because i would rather choose a quality friendship over quantity. I can give way if she is a nice person. But otherwise i wouldnt wish to meet her many times. I continued to keep my China friend friendship because we need each other for companion, at least until the day we finished studying poly.
Last note, I hope people could understand that certain friends who couldn't clicked with u, do not wished to be like that. Just like most people, they want someone to crazy with them and be trustworthy. Even for an introvert/shy person. So do considerate to their feelings when u are about to abandon them. If u do, u should let them know why. It's their choice whether they want to change. Don't be a selfish being.
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