Lately, I have been feeling depressed and sad... Err no maybe I am sad and emo every single day... Thinking about the fact that he will contact me or not... and hoping someone could comfort me... hope I could recover faster... hope I can complete IPPT ASAP...
Pray that everything can happen... Just like a magic wand... One swing and all my wishes came true...
Today I saw him posted a video in FB. Finally he did... god... I have been thinking what has happened to him for the past few weeks... Why he stopped posting...
I felt sad when I realised that he could have move on and feel much better and happier than me ever since we stop contacting. It was as though I was the only one being left alone... being stuck in here. He probably do not need me at all anymore... It is better off to never contact at all. :(
His video post left some comments and I saw someone I did not know commented. It is probably his new friend he met in his new base... I guess he will forget me once he gets into his next stage of career... his new environment and working lifestyle... He will be happier at there and decided to let go of our promises...
So many times I told myself that I will keep myself busy and indeed I had written down all the list. What only left for me is to start doing them. But then I told myself I will start doing them once he begin to contact me back... so that I can finally relieved myself for fulfilling our promises.
Before that, the only thing I can forget my sadness is to keep playing... Until it is time to sleep.
Then keep playing Dota with guy friends and LoL...
I will be waiting Bing...
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